Last week I posted something on my Instagram and facebook page that said, “Discover the Real You!!! The one God Created!!!”
I’ve spent years trying to discover my true identity. I always became who people wanted me to be. I use to wonder about my childhood a lot. I would think, ‘What if I was never sexually abused as a child? What would my life have been? What type of person would I have been? What would my personality had been like?’
When my daughter was about 4 or 5 years old, I would sometimes just sit and watch her. I would watch how she played and how she interacted with people. She has such a huge personality, and I would wonder, ‘would I have been like her at that age if the abuse wasn’t going on?’ I would watch how bold and free she was and without a care in the world.
Then I would sit and think about my childhood and how I was quiet, afraid and ashamed. As I grew older and became a teenager, I was still those things. I did what I was told and sometimes that led to bullying because people knew that I didn’t talk back or fight back so they would treat me however they wanted to. I became a people pleaser and thought that I had to always make people happy even if it meant I wasn’t happy.
I didn’t understand who I was. I didn’t understand who I was meant to be or who God had called me to be, and because I didn’t know this, I would spend days down and depressed not knowing where my life was going.
I’m so glad that God has placed me where I am today, this is why it’s so important to be where God wants you to be. As I stated in one of my previous blogs, my church has been a huge part of my spiritual growth. The way the WORD is taught to us, it helps me to know and understand my identity in Christ.
I use to count on people to give me what I needed not knowing that God has given me everything I need.
My Pastor recently said (paraphrasing) that in his upcoming teachings that we were going to meet someone new and then he said something so profound, "that someone new may just be YOU". What I heard was I was going to meet the Real Me. The one that God created.
I believe that I have met her now. I’m still getting to know her, but I love the person that she is becoming. I see now the huge purpose and plan that God has for her life, and I look forward to seeing how God is going to use her.
You see, it doesn’t matter what my past was or how I was in the past because of certain things happening to me. What matters is who I am now. What matters is that God loves me, and He created me on purpose for a purpose. The enemy wanted me to hold on to my past. He wanted me to hang on to that shame and fear because He knew how powerful I would be once I discovered the REAL ME.
So I say to you if you’re not sure of your identity or purpose. Go to God. Spend time with Him, commune with Him. Let Him show you, YOU. Let Him show you the person He created you to be.
Once you discover the person you were intended to be ( if you haven't already) then the REAL YOU will be able to stand up and conquer anything that may come your way.
Love you All with the Love of the Lord!
Be Blessed and Stay Affirmed!
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